I'm in a mood. Quite an unproductive mood. These always strike when I have so much to do, and it's all just a bit overwhelming, and I can never decide which part of what thing I should do first, so usually I just end up sitting around doing nothing, wasting the time away until it's too late to start anything, and I just get nothing done. That's how ( Read more... )

I've come a long way. I know that. But I still feel as if I'm floating along with little direction and little motivation. I've always known where I had to leave, but I've not really got a place to actually go towards. I need direction. I need rules and structure and routine and all the things that I've implemented before and failed at. But I can do ( Read more... )

This is mostly just a list post. I want to do a lot of things today, cause I'm just in that sort of mood.

blood test
mail DVD back to Adam
get money order to send for textbook and mail it
take fudge to Miranda
vaccuum lounge room
wash towels
book hair cut
rearrange appiontment with Eden
put clothes away
go to bank and see if I can set up another account
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I was feeling great before, but now I'm feeling a little bit lost.

I handed everything in for TAFE today, which was a huge achievement because I really didn't think I would get it all done. I did a heap of work on my diary, much more than anyone else did, much more than necessary, but as much as I wanted to. I'm proud of it. I wanted to do it, ( Read more... )

I felt weird yesterday afternoon, because I had nothing absolutely pressing to do. I've read the Twilight series, although I am definately still obsessed with Bella and Edward. I need more! But I'm surviving. I'm reading Mark New Moon anyway, so I'm reading all four books twice in a short time frame anyway. I finished, well actually I did, my ( Read more... )

All in all, Melbourne Cup day was a little bit of a let down. It wasn't a bad day, but it just should have been better. That seems to be how all my days go when I have events planed, but I was happy to get out and spend time with actual people.

I got Nat to pick me up so we could go to Joe's. I didn't want to get there alone, and I didn't want to ( Read more... )

I've decided I need routine. Structure. A set of rules, or something similiar. It was what the massive to-do list was supposed to do, but didn't. So I've decided to write a mini to-do list each day, with around six things on it that I want to accomplish. I used to do this, but got so overwhelmed with not getting things done and having to write them ( Read more... )

I just watched Underworld and Underworld Evolution. I can't believe I hadn't seen them before today. I love vampire movies, which is something probably no one really knows about me. I love creature movies. Not horror movies, creature movies. Even Supernatural on TV freaks me out a little bit too much. I do like it though, I just get scared easily I ( Read more... )

do photo blog
finish photo blog
clip and maybe paint nails
put clothes away
put dirty clothes in laundry
wash up
listen to two socy lectures
print out photography essay
pick photos for assessment
tidy study
write stuff out for Eden tomorrow

clean bathroom

Motivation does not do well when paired with indecision.

But that's the problem; I want to do something, but I don't know what I want to do. If someone could tell me something to do than I'd do it, but I can't for the life of me pick something out myself. My to-do list is huge, but I can dismiss every item on it with an excuse for why I shouldn't do ( Read more... )